You're not being whiny, well at least it doesn't seem that way for me. February this year I was in a bad place, really questioning myself as an artist, totally terrified as to what the future would hold, and believing I was the worst friend alive and didn't deserve anything because of a huge fight between me and my closest friend of 7 years. But because of all that bad stuff, especially the breakdown of that friendship, I've seen myself grow into my own individual identity, even though I know I've still got a lot of growth to do. One thing I've learned these past months, is that it's all about the little things in our lives that shape us, whether they be off hand comments from people that annoy us, a tiny action of kindness that make our day, a photo/memory that depresses us for the rest of the day etc. I don't know if any of this in of interest to you, or if it helps or whatever, but it did actually help me reading your journal then writing this, so thanks. And you're really an amazing cosplayer. ^^

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525,600 minutes, how do you measure a year in the life...

The opposite of war isn't peace, IT'S CREATION!!!

I my ~Roxas-Has-A-Stick for my awesome birthday present of my new avi! ^.^

FWOOSH!!!

Wow, thanks for that. I'm glad I helped you, 'cause you definitely helped me, thanks! Such a thoughtful comment, thanks. And it IS of interest of me :3
Why again do you live at about the other side of the planet? XD
It was similar for me this winter. Fight with really really good long-time friends are one of the hardest thing ever. I fight my best friend all the time, even though I NEVER fight... well normally that is. But with her I cry and scream and fight and I don't know... But the awesomness is, that we always make up again and are the best friend again. And the most amazing thing is, that no matter how painful it might get, no matter how close we get to end our friendship, we always now that we are worth all this trouble... Friendship is an amazing thing.
I don't know if you ever made up with that important friend of yours. If you did, you see, what I mean; if you didn't, then I wish you good luck with either getting on good terms again or moving on and finding another potential long-term friend. As hard as it is, some things just aren't meant to be, I guess.
The important thing is, that this experience changed you, just as much as not knowing what would happen in the future or what to make of it. I have to say, that is one of the scariest things ever... when everything is so unsure.
But the great thing is, you have overcome all that fear and sorrow and are now an even stronger person (sorry for sounding all movie-wisdom like XD), just as I am after my hard time ^^
That's what makes us who we are, I guess. And I think, everyone will and HAS TO have bad times.
That's just how things are.

And you're right again... I always thought how amazing it is, how the tiniest things can change you or ruin your day.. or make you the happiest person alive (at least ones self thinks so at those times xD)

Anyway~~ It's getting a little out hand here, sorry xD" (there's probably a bunch of mistakes in there XD) Thanks again, for sharing those wonderful thoughts!
And ewww again, that you live so so far away D:

Thanks as well for the cosplay compliment, it's my greatest hobby and it always makes me happy, when people like what I'm doing

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"Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent." - Victor Hugo

Yeah, I don't really know what came over me. I just read your journal and had this huge urge to comment on it and just kept writing...and no no no no no, it is /you/ my dear, that lives on the other side of the planet, so not my fault! Lol
Well, no, I never have made up with that friend (there's actually pictures of her in my gallery. She's Syks), but part of my growth these past months has allowed me to realise I do need to move on, and that I am ready and can handle it. So although I highly doubt that I'll ever get that close friendship back with her, I really am in a good place at the moment. I have a good steady job, which allows me to save money to go to University next year, I have a great family with many happy things happening lately including my sister getting engaged and my sister-in-law getting pregnant, I have the most amazing boyfriend who is planning to come and live/flat with me in Christchurch, the city I'll be studying at next year, I do have some amazing friends, even though other friendships were completely destroyed with the fight in February. And yes, I am still unsure about the future, and definatly nervous about moving away from my family and everything, but I know now I'm strong enough to do it, and everything will turn out great, even if it's nothing like what I plan. (I love movie-wisdom. It seriously kicks ass. x3)

I'm such an emotional person, and it can be so frustrating when it's the tiniest things that can change my day so much, but ah well. I guess we just have to learn to live with it. xD

I don't know what it is about you, but you're so easy to talk to like this, which is probably why my replies are so huge and I generally never write this much. Lol. But it's definatly a good thing. ^^ And one day, I hope to travel the world, and Germany has always been a dream place to visit, so who knows, we may be able to actually meet face to face one day, but like I said before, now my fault! You're the one that lives far away! D=

Well I couldn't not comment on your cosplay, I seriously love all your costumes! I first discovered you through your Hayner cosplay with your Seifer, and have been a total fan ever since! Especially with Paopuboy! He's my hero! ^^ <3

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525,600 minutes, how do you measure a year in the life...

The opposite of war isn't peace, IT'S CREATION!!!

I my ~Roxas-Has-A-Stick for my awesome birthday present of my new avi! ^.^

FWOOSH!!!

First of all, I'm SO sorry, for replying this late... I normally don't have much time and I didn't want to write just a quick answer!

So now I'll try to finally answer you comments!

I guess we are both to blame xD
You just live to far apart, it's so unfair! >-<

It's sad that you two never made up, but I'm glad that you decided to go on, because I'd say that's the right thing to do. And who knows, maybe one day you'll make up at least a little bit?
Yeah, the problem is, that the friendship normally never gets back to the way it was before... but instead you find new great friends, so thats ok!
I'm glad, that your life's good a the moment, that all sounds great and I'm sure you'll have a great time from now on <3
Problems will always be there, but there'll always be wondeful happy moments as well^^
I wish you the best of luck in university, you'll do great!

It's ok to be unsure from time to time, nobody's perfect after all ^^
But you found your way now and that's what important!

Go, Movie-Wisdom! XD

Yeah, it's the same for me xD" Sometimes I think, being emotional sucks, but well...xD Without that, I wouldn't be me^^
Same for you I guess^^

Same for you here as well :'D It's great to talk to you as well and again I'm so very sorry that I didn't write you for such a long time! >.< I normally only write short comments as well xD" which is probably why it took me so long u_u
If you ever come to Germany we HAVE to meet <3 I'll be happy
Same goes for me, if I ever come near your place <3
Which I actually plan to do xD
Still you fault
Or as I said above, both of our faults xD"

Don't worry about it! ^^ Comments make me happy, but I don't cosplay for the comments and attention, but because it's fun <3
Anyway, still thank you, I love Paopuboy! XD
If you ever need someone to save you, Paopuboy will come to the rescue! >D

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"Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent." - Victor Hugo

First thought: WOW! That's a big reply! Lol

It's all good about the lateness thing. I'm pretty hopeless when it comes to replying and stuff, always coming back to conversations like weeks later...not to mention I'm generally always late for everything. xDDD

You're never going to give up blaming me, are you?

Yeah, it is a sad thing. It's pretty much the end of an era. She was basically my entire life here, and that's something I'll never be able to get away from, but now I've had a chance to sort myself out, I'm glad she impacted so many different parts of my life. She truly was a special friend and by having so many memories constantly being refreshed in my mind, I'll never lose that friendship we once shared so deeply.

And I have found some amazing new friends, and been able to strengthen old friendships as well. Not to mention all my amazing DA friends from all different countries, including a special someone from Germany...

Yeah, I'm steadily freaking out about Uni. xDDD Because I am definatly far from perfect. Lol. But my friends still love me, so yay me!

One of my goals in life: collect every single movie that made an impact on me in childhood, first and formost all the Disney movies, and make sure I keep them until I'm an old grandma and still watch them! Lol

Yeah, being emotional is definatly a strong aspect in my personality. Lol. I get very passionate about things that move me and such, and like you, that's what makes me, me. ^^

Don't worry, don't apologise, I mean, you did write back in the end, and it's a pretty impressive reply. Lol

One day, I promise I will get there, and we WILL meet! Ohmigosh, you should totally come here! NZ RULES! Lol At least that's what everyone says....x3 You could come to one of our 3 conventions! xD

NOT MY FAULT!

Ok, maybe my fault....just a little....Lol

Yeah, that's what cosplay is about for me. Because of it, that's where I've made some of my closest friends, and it's also how I met my boyfriend. ^^ I'm so glad I discovered it. I love it so much!

Hehe. Yay! I have my own personal hero! <3

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525,600 minutes, how do you measure a year in the life...

The opposite of war isn't peace, IT'S CREATION!!!

I my ~Roxas-Has-A-Stick for my awesome birthday present of my new avi! ^.^

FWOOSH!!!