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Got any questions? - FAQ time!

Journal Entry: Sat Feb 1, 2014, 12:50 PM

Hiya! Since I often get asked the same questions, I was thinking of finally doing a FAQ! I
thought, I could maybe do a FAQ video, as well as putting them up somewhere in written
form. ^^

If you have any question you want answered, let me know in this post, via note or any other

I've already compiled a list of the questions, I get very often:

> Do you make all your cosplays yourself?
> How did you learn to sew?
> Where do you buy your wigs?
> Where do you buy your fabrics?
> Where do you buy your patterns?
> Where do you buy your bodypaint?
> Which make up do you use?
> What made you start cosplay?
> Do you have any tips for new cosplayers?
> What is your favourite cosplay?
> How often do you usually wear a costume?
> Do you have a dream cosplay?
> Do you make your own cosplay props?
> How can you afford all those cosplays?
> How do you chose a character to cosplay?
> Will you ever come to the Japan Expo?
> Do you make your own patterns?
> Do you buy cosplays?
> Do you take commissions?
> Do you sell your cosplays?

Anything to add? Let me know!

Thanks as always for your support and everthing!! :heart:

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

Facebook Page and MCM Expo May

Journal Entry: Fri Feb 22, 2013, 7:50 AM

Hey guys! :D

It's been a while! The worst of my exams are over (at least for a while XD) so I'll
now have time for online stuff and cosplay again! :D
So I'll be more active again! :D
I also decided to join the facebook page fun after all! :)
Thank you all for the votes and your opinions! <3 It helped me a lot to decide.

So here's my facebook cosplay page:

I'll also post progress, tutorials, conventions reports and cosplay plans there :) As
well as the occasional shooting picture of course. ;)

Feel free to drop in <3

Also, I'm happy to announce that I'll be attending MCM Expo London in May :D
This time no Uni stuff will make me cancel!!!
Let me know if you're going as well! :D
I'll most definitely wear my Jane Cosplay one day. Not sure about the second day,
maybe Black Widow, maybe more Disney, maybe something new :) We'll see!

Thanks again for all the great support! <3
Stay tuned!


  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD


Journal Entry: Thu Oct 25, 2012, 6:28 AM

Hey guys,

just wanted to tell you that I can't come to MCM Expo this weekeend! :(((

I know this on very short notice, but it just happened.
University got in my way. ;___;
I'm devastated!!!

But I'll definitely try to come at the May Expo next year!!!

Have a great time at the Expo >_<


  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

London MCM Expo October

Journal Entry: Tue Sep 18, 2012, 8:11 AM

My journal doesn't seem to be working right, as this is the third time I'm publishing
this entry and it still doesn't show up. oO

Hope it work's this time :'D

Just wanted to let you know, that my flight is booked and I'm definitely going to MCM
Expo in London this October! :)

I'll probably be wearing my Black Widow and my Jane Cosplay! <3

Anyone else going? :D

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

Interrail tour August 2012

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 31, 2012, 12:45 PM

Hey everybody,

I'll be gone for all of August on my Interrail tour with my friend Alexa. Soooo

I won't answer any messages and comments in that time. :/

See ya all in September!! :D

Check out our interrail blog:

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

Photographer feature! :D

Journal Entry: Tue Jun 19, 2012, 7:13 AM

Hey everyone,

today I'd like feature some people, who are essential to us Cosplayers! :)

Cosplay photographers!
They're the ones, who help us create art, that lasts beyond wearing our costumes for
a day.
Since I started I met many many nice, very creative and talented photographers!

Most of those featured, will be German photographers, as I'll mostly just feature
those I know! :)

If anyone doesn't want to be featured here, let me know!

(following order is completely random, this is only the first feature. More will follow.)

Franky is a very talented photographer who often takes very extraordinary photos!
He is also a very dear friend to me, whom I've one a few years. :)
Whom should I hit next? by Franky-chanZombie Hunter vs Soldier by Franky-chanCassandra Cain(Black Bat) by Franky-chan

Andy, in my opinion, is especially talented and very creative with his photos.
His pictures often surprise and amaze me! He is also a funny person. XD
Soul Eater - Teamwork by Andy-KHerbstzeitlose by Andy-KTiger and Bunny - Partners by Andy-K

Domi, as I call him XD, is also a dear friend, who has improved immensly since I've
first met him and by the way, takes most of my pictures, which I always like!

Quorra - Tron by HasengottSnow White by HasengottI love bubbles by Hasengott

Another friend, who especially likes taking one-person pictures. He loves to
experiment and try new things and also went to London with us! :D
Fairly Odd Parents - Tooth Fairy and Jorgen by theDevil-photographyCatherine II by theDevil-photographyAssassin's Creed - Hellequin Cosplay by theDevil-photography

Luffy doesn't call himself a photographer and has mostly abandoned his dA account,
but still deserves a feature as he was one of the first photographers I met and is a
friend. :)

A friend who lives in the same town as I do and takes photos with a very special kind
of atmosphere in my opinion! <3 She also took my favourite cosplay picture of me of
all time: I want adventure... by Rayi-kun
Thinking of you by PuddingpampeAvatar - Toph by PuddingpampeWhere's the white rabbit? by Puddingpampe

Another friend of mine! :) I really like his pictures, though I'm not a big fan of his
trademark frame :P But it's fine and he takes pictures with nice atmosphere ^^
Heros by ABthediabloSurprised by ABthediabloEvil girl by ABthediablo

To anyone who wasn't featured: This does NOT mean, that I don't value your work.
I just didn't want to feature more than eight. ^^ There will also be second feature for
photographers. :)

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

MCM Expo - Final Cosplay plan

Journal Entry: Fri May 18, 2012, 2:50 AM

Hey guys,

so there's been a little change to my cosplay plans for the MCM AGAIN. haha

Anyway, my fabric for Black Widow still didn't arrive and neither that cosplay nor Jane
will be finished in time for the Expo. So the only new cosplay I'll be wearing is
Quorra from TRON: Legacy. Watch out for the glowing girl ;D

Anyways, the seconde day I'll most definitely wear Belle. Still thinking about Rapunzel
or Thumbelina, since they got the most votes, but wearing those wigs for a day is
really annoying, since the hair's sooo long :/
We'll see.

Anyway, Jane and Black Widow will follow soon after the Expo. :) I'm looking
forward to wear Quorra and I'll be looking forward to meet you guys! <3

Until then! :D

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Reading: &quot;1Q84&quot; by Murakami!
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

MCM Cosplay Change - Avengers time!

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 27, 2012, 1:47 AM

Just letting you know, that I'm probably back to my original plan for my second
MCM Cosplay, which was BLACK WIDOW from the Avengers.

I originally planned on doing that there and then changed it for Jane cause that
would've been made for the next Convention after that anyway and I didn't want to
have to work on too many things at once.
Black Widow was stilled planned but for a different time.

But I went to see The Avengers yesterday and now I am all like
89<7sfz08<zf09z90 OH MY GAWD AVENGEEEEEEEERS <as7f<tz9s7f
and I absolutely cannot wait to cosplay Black Widow, so I'll try my best to finish it in
time for the Expo as well as finish the Jane cosplay right afterwards.
At least, that cosplay fits into my suit case for the flight lol. Jane would've been a
challenge to pack. XD

If I don't finish the Black Widow or Quorra cosplay in time, I'll wear either Thumbelina,
Rapunzel or Belle the other day. We'll see.


  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Reading: &quot;1Q84&quot; by Murakami!
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

MCM Expo Lodon - May 2012

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 4, 2012, 3:12 AM

Hey everyone! :)

Sorry, yet again, for my lack of activity! Life (and cosplay making XD) is keeping me
busy XD). Especially work, haha.

It's been a while since my last journal entry, so I wanted to let you know that I'll be
attending thee MCM Expo in London this May! :D
I'll go to London with my lovelies :iconshigeako: and :iconthedevil-photography: for 5 days
and we'll be at the expo Saturday and Sunday, while we spend the rest of the time
cruising through London and also a little Sherlock Shooting! :)
I think, dear :iconnightmareluffy: will be along for the expo as well. :heart:

Anyway! At the moment I think I'll be wearing the following (new) cosplays:

Saturday - Quorra (TRON: Legacy)
Sunday - Jane Porter (Disney's Tarzan)

But it could still change depending on the mood and time and money XD

Anyway, I am really really looking forward to going to London with my friends! <3

I'm really looking forward to meet :iconorochimarisu: again! <3 I hope, there'll be
more nice people, I know! :D

Let me know, if you'll go to the MCM as well! :) Maybe we can meet?

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Reading: &quot;1Q84&quot; by Murakami!
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

Tumblr! :D

Journal Entry: Sat Jan 7, 2012, 1:47 PM

Hey darlings! :D

Sorry, for being inactive for a while! A lot is going on in live!

First of all and a little late: HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D
I hope you all had the greatest 2011 and a great start into 2012! <3

My year was very busy, but great! :)

I wanted to let you know, while already having had a personal cosplay tumblr blog
for quite a while, which is all about my life and even more about silly fangirling
(especially x-men), I have now also set up a Cosplay-related tumblr! <3

I'll post Cosplay pics there obviously, as well as Cosplay tutorials, FAQs, Progress
and everything else :)
Also of course I'll reblog and like other people's cosplay!

If you're interested and have a tumblr account, I'd be happy to have you as a
follower! :heart:

Find me here:

I'll start posting stuff the next few days! :D

If anyone's interested in my personal tumblr blog as well, it's :)

Lots of love to all of you!

Thank you for all the support in 2011, you've been amazing! :heart: !!!

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Reading: &quot;1Q84&quot; by Murakami!
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

Supernatural Cosplay Project

Journal Entry: Sun Nov 6, 2011, 7:57 AM

Hey Guuuuuuys :D

It's been a while since I last made an Journal entry and SUPRISE SURPRISE: it's not
about X-men LOL XD
My love for XMFC of course has not been abandoned (as you can see from then
pictures I'm uploading lately lol), but this time it's about something else:


A little SPN Cosplay project has been started over here and in October we had our
first shooting in Berlin! :D
Quite a few things went wrong and much had to be improvised, but we all had much
fun and now I can't wait to see the results! <3

I met so many great people! :D Thanks for an awesome weekend!

I won't be uploading any pictures here on dA, since we decided to upload them all
together at one place :) You can take a look here:


Uploading only started today, so there'll be much more coming over the next days
and weeks I guess x)
And I'll feature a few of them here in this journal entry, when they're uploaded :D

Our great crew:

:iconpyrohunk: as Dean Winchester, :iconingeniusblue: as Sam Winchester
:iconprongsmarauder: as Castiel, :iconbeechs: as Bobby Singer
:iconrayi-kun: (me) as Jo Harvelle, :iconneaellen: as Ellen Harvelle
:iconmistressno1: as Lisa Braeden, :iconlilaclace: as Ruby (blonde)
:iconwish-uponastar: as Anna Milton, :iconteufelssonate: as Gabriel

Love you guys! <3

>> Picture feature <<

'Supernatural Cosplay Crew' by IngeniusBlue SPN Cos Crew - Serious Business by IngeniusBlue
SPN Cos Crew - Rage and Rain by IngeniusBlue SPN Cos Crew - Facing The Devil by IngeniusBlue
SPN Cos Crew - Fear No Evil by IngeniusBlue SPN Cos Crew - Hold My Hand by IngeniusBlue
SPN Cos Crew - Seance by IngeniusBlue SPN Cos Crew - Nest Of The Demon by IngeniusBlue
SPN Cos Crew - The Fallen Siblings by IngeniusBlue SPN Cos Crew - Losing Faith by IngeniusBlue SPN Cos Crew - Know Your Place by IngeniusBlue

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Reading: &quot;1Q84&quot; by Murakami!
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

X-Men: First Love

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 12, 2011, 3:46 AM


Sorry for my inactivity but as some of you may have noticed I have no life since
I've seen X-men: First Class. Or what my friends and I've been calling it: X-Men:
First Love. xD

Currently my life is basically like this: Work - X-men / FassAvoy Flashing - Food -
X-men / FassAvoy Flashing - A little Sewing - X-men / FassAvoy Flashing - Work
again - X-men / FassAvoy Flashing

I basically live on Tumblr these days XD

I mean, the movie itself was totally awesome and the Soundtrack is all I'm listening
to now, but above that all my inner Slash-Fangirl has come back!!! XD
And I am more flashed by it than ever!
I can't remember ever being so obsessed with something! *___*

I mean Erik/Charles.... ITS' JUST THERE! If you've seen the movie YOU JUST HAVE
TO AGREE. And the comics have always kinda alluded to it anyway.


Also I am in LOVE with James McAvoy! :heart:
I liked him a lot in Atonement, Becoming Jane and Narnia.... BUT AS CHARLES

And Michael Fassbender is just SO HOT.


OMG. I feel like thirteen all over again. I am reduced to a squeeing fangirl and it's
eating all my free-time, I bascially don't have, BUT I DON'T CARE.
Cause I am happy and the best about it - I have a friends that feel exactly the
same! :D So all our conversations at the moment is about X-men and James
McAvoy and Michael Fassbender. XD

Sorry for the total random fangirl spam, but it's bascially ruling my life right now! XD

If you haven't seen the movie, GO WATCH IT!

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Reading: &quot;1Q84&quot; by Murakami!
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

Dokomi and Injuries

Journal Entry: Wed Jun 15, 2011, 1:12 AM

Hey guys!

I've decided to write more about the conventions I go to, in the future!
And since Dokomi was the most recent one, I'll start with that one :D

Dokomi was... interesting, you could say. It started up really relaxing and ended in
the hospital...

Saturday I wore Thumbelina together with :iconne-iro: as my beautiful Prince
Cornelius. <3
The easiest way to describe the Saturday would be to say: It was relaxed.
Not the usual stress or anything. At the beginning I had problems with my wig, but
after that was fixed, there weren't really any problems.
We took only a few photos, I met almost all my German friends who were there and
at the end of the day I even met :iconmysteriousmaemi: as the beautiful Jasmin!
Not much happened. I don't know I felt like something was missing. I was a nice
convention, but somehow not as fun as I thought it would be.
Anyway, so much for Saturday. It was nice, but not awesome. I was pretty much just
happy to finally cosplay with my dear friend!

As for Sunday - I didn't go.
Something had been wrong with my blue contacts I wore as Thumbelina. And
somewhere around 4 in the morning I woke up in pain.
Since I couldn't open my left eye and was really hurting a lot, we went to the
There they told me that I had scratches on my cornea and my eyesight at that point
was only 30 %. (Normally I have totally normal eyesight, no glasses needed)
BUT fortunately it was only temporary damage.
So after the hospital I went home instead of going to Dokomi (obviously XD) and
spent a basically blind day at home with my best friend.
It was all rather shocking and I was sad that I didn't get to finally wear our Noir
Cosplays with my friend :iconkamikyo:, but in the end the most important thing was,
that there wouldn't be any permanent damage.

So now I'm back to about 90 % on my left eye and it only hurts very very little. So I
can actually use the computer again and read books, I'm happy XD
Tomorrow I'll be back to work!

To every cosplayer who uses contacts - let me just say: Be careful with them. Of
course there normally are no problems while wearing them, but damage can be
done, when they're used wrongly. And let me tell you - A scratched up cornea hurts.
A lot. And I was fortunate to have no permanent damage. In the worst case scenario
it could've damaged my eyesight forever.
I think contacts are not very important for a cosplay and damaging my eyes is just
not worth it, so I won't wear them again.
I don't want to scare anyone, I'm just saying that one should be careful with their

Anyway - next Con will be AmiRu in about three weeks :D Hopefully that'll be less
drama and more fun! XD

See ya!

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Reading: &quot;1Q84&quot; by Murakami!
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

Cosplay Plans 2011

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 12, 2011, 12:26 AM

Cosplays and Conventions 2011

Hey guys,

Just saw that it's been ages since my last journal entry XD

So far, I'm doing very well <3
Life is very busy, but I'm happy! :heart:

So I just felt like showing you my cosplay plans for this year :D

But as you know, changes are always possible!
(hopefully I'll get to cosplay One Piece somewhere in between >:)

:bulletgreen: Leipzig Bookfair 2011 (already over) :bulletgreen:
Friday - > Alice Cullen (New Moon) [old]
Saturday -> Suki [Fire Nation] (Avatar - The Last Airbender) [new]
Sunday -> Bo Peep (Toy Story) [new]

:bulletgreen: Animuc :bulletgreen:
Saturday -> Belle [Yellow Dress] (The Beauty and the Beast) [old]
Sunday -> Tinkerbell [probably Lost Treasure] (Tinker Bell) [old]

:bulletgreen: Hanami :bulletgreen:
Saturday -> Rapunzel (Tangled) [new]
Sunday -> Belle [Blue Dress] (The Beauty and the Beast) [new]

:bulletgreen: Dokomi :bulletgreen:
Saturday -> Thumbelina (Thumbelina) [new]
Sunday -> Kirika (Noir) [new]

:bulletgreen: AmiRu :bulletgreen:
Saturday -> Tinkerbell [Great Fairy Rescue] (Tinker Bell) [new]
Sunday -> SURPRISE! :D [new]

:bulletgreen: AnimagiC :bulletgreen:
Friday -> either Hermione (Harry Potter) or Cesare (Cantarella) [old]
Saturday -> Tinkerbell [Great Fairy Rescue] (Tinker Bell) [new]
Sunday -> Captain Dolce (Eternal Sonata) [new]

:bulletgreen: gamescom :bulletgreen:
Saturday -> Aqua (Kingdom Hearts - Birth by Sleep) [new]
maybe Sunday -> Oerba dia Vanille (Final Fantasy XIII) [old]

:bulletgreen: Connichi :bulletgreen:
Friday -> Oerba dia Vanille (Final Fantasy XIII) [old]
Saturday -> Chrno (Chrono Crusade) [new]
Sunday -> Aqua (Kingdom Hearts - Birth by Sleep) [new]

:bulletgreen: Frankfurt Bookfair :bulletgreen:
Saturday -> Bo Peep (Toy Story) [new]
Sunday -> Rapunzel (Tangled) [new]

:bulletgreen: Mega Manga Con :bulletgreen:
Saturday -> not yet decided :D
Sunday -> not yet decided :D

haha, once again, a year filled with tons of conventions and cosplays :D
But that's the way I want it lol XD

And I'm thinking about going to MCM London Expo or Abunai... it would be pretty awesome! *_* But it'll depend on how much money I'll have XD

Looking forward to each cosplay soooo soooo much *_*
Any favs? :D

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Reading: &quot;1Q84&quot; by Murakami!
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

New Years Resolution

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 4, 2011, 11:26 AM

New Year's Resolution 2011


Seems like my journal's been dead like forever LOL XD

Sorry that I couldn't wish you all a Merry Christmas and all, but I was in Berlin for the Xmas Holidays and in Bavaria for New Year's Eve!


But I hope you all had a lovely Christmas and had a great time celebrating the NEW YEAR <3
I sure did! :D

I normally never do this, but since 2010 was pretty much a awful year(in many ways... even though there were also some really amazing things that happened that year), I think it's time for some new year's resolutions! ^^

Some a silly, some are not XD

- do some kind of sport (I'm getting out of shape XD)
- being better organized
- being more tidy (though I think this might be in vain XD)
- picking up piano lessons again
- read more books! (I read quite a few this year, but not as many as I used to)
- finish my cosplays early! XD
- don't get stressed over little thing so much
- keep in touch with more people
- go to Ireland again
- help more people :) (this I always try to do...)
- being more hard-working!
- don't hang around the internet as much xD
- visit more people!
- get back to my old self.
- being more mature
- loose weight (hate me for saying this, but the cold months made me put on too much weight XD)
- go out more?
- finally having a real relationship? (CALL ME STUPID, I DONT CARE D:)
- being more open for new things
- answer to more comments xD"
- finally find my own style xD
- stop being so annoying xD
- stop being lazy :'D
- finding back to my happy self <3
- laughing more!
- crying less! XD
- finally collect all Ewan McGregor DVDs XDDDDD
- go to at least ONE concert!
- talk to a very dear person more and hopefully see them, too...
- being a great friend!
- AND MANY MORE THINGS! XD have you anything you absolutely want for yourself this year?! :D

P.S.: Forgot to say... I am actually feeling very happy atm :) I don't really know why... there's a lot going on and I've lost a few things last year and a lot of kinda bad things happened... but a lot of good things happened, too. And for some reason, I feel very pleased and happy at the moment. ^____^ Though there's one thing that could me make me even more happy... <3

  • Listening to: The Scarlet Pimpernel Musical OST
  • Reading: &quot;1Q84&quot; by Murakami!
  • Watching: Star Wars V
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing :x
  • Drinking: Water xD

Frankfurt Bookfair and Belle Cosplay

Journal Entry: Mon Oct 4, 2010, 11:48 AM

Frankurt Bookfair Cosplay Changes

Hey there!

This weekend it's Frankfurt Bookfair...
And to all the (mostly German) people who go there...
I won't be going as Belle.

It's still too far from finished ;A;
So on Saturday I'll be going as Tinkerbell (Lost Treasure) and on Sunday you'll see me as No-Ah from Legend!

I'm quite sad, that I can't finish on time, but I'm still looking forward to the bookfair.

My next and last convention after that will be AniMaCo in Berlin and there I plan to wear Belle on Sunday.
and hopefully I'll be able to wear it a lot of times next year :heart:

FFXIII project photos

Shoot me by Rayi-kun You will see your home again by Rayi-kun
Pray for better times by Rayi-kun We can face it all by Rayi-kun
I am so sorry... by Rayi-kun Faaang... Not now... by Anathiell
Affection by Rayi-kun I will always be with you by Rayi-kun
FFXIII - I'm gonna protect you by Rayi-kun Sneak peak from Pulse by Anathiell
Farron sisters by Anathiell A postcard from Gran Pulse by Anathiell
As long as we believe... by Anathiell Gran Pulse by Anathiell
How it ends isn't important by Anathiell It's a dream I had, a bad one. by Anathiell

  • Listening to: Tinkerbell and the Lost Treasure OST
  • Reading: The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown
  • Watching: Stargate SG-1
  • Playing: KH: Birth by Sleep
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Black Tea

Changed for Good

Journal Entry: Wed Sep 8, 2010, 7:13 AM

For good

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the

But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the


But because I knew you:

Because I knew you:

I have been changed for good


lyrics (c) by Wicked Musical


I listened to the Wicked soundtrack (the German though) and got stuck with this song. It reminded me of how everyone you meet, changes you a tiny bit.
And it made me think of all the people I met and how they changed me, especially the FFXIII project's people which has only been 1 1/2 weeks a got...
It doesn't need a lot of time for people to affect you and even just a weekend can be enough to change you...

And now that I've been changed for good.

FFXIII project photos

I am so sorry... by Rayi-kun Faaang... Not now... by Anathiell
Affection by Rayi-kun I will always be with you by Rayi-kun
FFXIII - I'm gonna protect you by Rayi-kun Sneak peak from Pulse by Anathiell
Farron sisters by Anathiell A postcard from Gran Pulse by Anathiell
As long as we believe... by Anathiell Gran Pulse by Anathiell

  • Listening to: FFXIII soundtrack
  • Playing: FFIX
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Coffee

FFXIII Project Ireland - A weekend in Grand Pulse

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 2, 2010, 6:11 AM

A very "Vanillish" weekend

Hey guys,

Some of you might know about Anathiell 's Final Fantasy XIII project in Ireland.

I came back from on Sunday and if there's one thing I can say: IT WAS TOTALLY AWESOME!!!
So many things went wrong, but also so so many things went perfectly right!

Just a slight warning if anyone actually bothers to read this - this is going to be my longest journal entry EVER. And it's going to be MASSIVE.
So if anyone actually manages to read all of this - you're great. xD (or maybe just bored?)

>>>>>>>>>>>>>> The days before I left

I was so exciteeeeeeeeed XD

So before I went to Ireland, I had been at Kukkusche's place for a few day, which of course was incredibly awesome :heart:
From there I went to :nightmareluffy:'s place on thursday, cause he lives closer to the airport than me or Kukku do.
I had also not seen him for some time, so I kind used this chance to visit him. We had a nice short evening, even though poor Luffy had to work until 2 in th morning.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>> FRIDAY

So Friday was the day I was leaving for Ireland and of course - I overslept XD
Just like me to oversleep, when it's important to wake up on time. xD

Anyway, I managed to catch my train after all, even though Düsseldorf airport is confusing as hell XD
Landing in Dublin, I was overwhelmed by being in my favourite country again and was glad that I got picked up by Peter, Serah and Fang <3
Awesome peeeeople~~
I was really afraid, that I had to look for those guys everwhere, but Serah recognized me instantly, so YAY!

To be honest, when I was on the plane, I was scared of many things like "What if they don't like me?" or "What if I'm not enough as Vanille after all?" and so on...
But in the end, everyone was great and accepted me the way I am. It couldn't have been any better.

I'm still glad I new Snow from before, because it actually helped me to decide to participate in the first place. And I probably would've hated myself if I didn't!

So after getting picked up our small group went for a walk in phoenix park and then to a shopping centre, so Peter had time to collect Ana from work and pick up Snow and Hope from the airport later on.

So we stormed all of the games shops there XD and then I bought a Slinky dog and a Buzz Lightyear DVD XDDDDD (yes I love Toy Story)
Then I was finally able to meet up with my beloved friend Kate, who I haven't seen for two years.
We only met for less than an hour, but it was totally worth it and I was incredibly happy to see her again <3

We then finally went to Ana's place, where I got to meet the rest of our group, which was great <3 I already felt like home, when Ana hugged me to greet me <33333

So we had a nice bbq and got to know each other better. We also met our great photographer Martin, a truly brilliant person.
We then practiced our skit for a bit and went to bed to get some sleep, cause we had to get up early the next morning.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>> SATURDAY

Saturday - the day of chaos, the day of cold wind, the day of awesomness, the day of everything and nothing XD

The day started with about everything going wrong. Some time of the day I thought, that someone just wanted to make us face difficulties like the characters in the game. After all - an adventure without difficulties wouldn't be an adventure, would it?

We got up at 5.30 so we'd be able to leave at 7. My back piece came off the moment I put on the top and I had to fix it. So Fang and I barely managed to be ready on time...
When we left the house a bit late, we somehow managed to get lost. We drove around for a while to find our way back to the actual route and then Fang got sick. Me and Serah didn't feel that good either, so we had to take a little break. When we moved again, I actually forgot my neclaced ON THE ROOF OF THE CAR! OMG!
Luckily, one of the nice guys with us noticed, PHEW!
Somewhere along the trip, we bumped into that huge stone and damaged two wheels of our car. So we had to change one of them.
It's kind of like bad things just kept happening XD" It was like Murphy's law became true XD Everthing than can go wrong, will go wrong XD

So anyway, after a while we arrived at our first destination, which was on top of a mountain and... it was beautiful... it was GRAND PULSE!

But the problem was - IT WAS FREEZING! I haven't been that cold in a long time!
It wouldn't have been so bad, if there hadn't been that freakingly strong wind. So we all got out, wrapped in Jackets and Blankets and all cuddled together.

We got brave enough to take a few pictures, but went back under blankets after only a short time.
I only managed to take about three pictures or so, cause I just couldn't stay in the cold much longer.
I felt bad about complaining the whole time, but honestly - even though everyone was cold, I think I was off the worst, cause Vanille just wears the fewest clothes of everyone. It wasn't much better for Fang either I guess. Pulse guys should really buy more clothes! XD

Anyway we didn't stay there that long, cause we got chased away by some guy, as that place turned out to be private property...

We drove to another great place, but I didn't even get out of the car there. I was just too cold xD"
And poor Fang was busy fixing her neclace and speer anyway, so I wouldn't have gotten to take pictures with her anyway >w<

So we then found a forest - where it wasn't as cold - so YAY <3 We finally were able to take a few more pictures <33333333

So after a short break we tried to find a lake to take pictures at... which turned put to be more difficult than expected, since everything in Ireland seems to be private property xD

But after a while we found a public lake, took some picture on a bridge and at that lake.
The only problem - THE WIND WAS BACK, oh nooooooes~~~
It was cold once again and my stupid back piece kept slapping me in the face XD

Anyways - we then went back home to have something to eat and get ready for NomCon, where we arrived around half past 5.

It was great that they let us in for free. It was a bit sad that we didn't get to do our skit after all, especially after all the work Fang put into it, but the stage was just to small.
We were allowed to particpate in the hero walk on, which was really cool <33333
Anyway NomCon was great, but small - so were actually getting stared at all the time :D Which was cool, but something new for me as well XD"

At this point, let me say thank you to CelestialSpear ,who really did all the she could do for us! You are great and I loved meeting you, thanks for everything!

So after NomCom we walked around to take some more pictures and then went back home, as we all were really tired.

We then took a first look at the amazing pictures of the day, which was breath-taking.
And as we were all exhausted, we went to bed early.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>> SUNDAY

So on Sunday we were planning to leave at 9 o'clock, but when the alarm clocks went off around 7.30... no one bothered to get up XD
And when it was 8, everyone was still in bed. XD

Around that time, Ana showed up and told we were not going anywhere, so we were all VERY HAPPY about that xD

So after having a nice long breakfast and recovering a little, (We were all kind of sick from the last day) we decided to set up a small studio at home :)
This way we were finally able to look at the screenshots that were sent it and try photos according to them.

At this point I was really grateful, that everyone was so considerate... cause they let me go first. I was the only one who already left on Sunday (T_T) and so we decided to take all the pictures Vanille was in first.
Thank you guys!

It was hard for me to get the right expression first... And I thought that I would look totally fail next to all those great people, cause they did so well with expressions and poses and so on >w<
But I think, I kind of got the hang of it and it turned out okay :3
It was fun trying to immitate some scenes <3 it was an entirely new experience for me!

So Sunday went by TOO quickly!
I finished my pictures, watched the others take some more, got changed, packed my stuff, looked at some of the photos again and then it was already time for me to leave ;_______;

For a moment there I was DESPERATE. I didn't want to go. I didn't want the weekend to end just yet, I didn't want to leave Ireland AGAIN and most of all, I didn't want to leave our group. A small group of people, that I got to like so so much in only a short time. It was a bit like leaving my family behind or something.

So when I had to go, I actually couldn't keep myself from crying. I normally hate to cry in front of people. It's something I normally just don't do. But I couldn't help it...

Everyone hugged me and sayed very kind words to me, which was very very touching. There was so much I wanted to say to them and thank them for, especially Ana. But in the end I couldn't really say that much. But I think the know anyway.

So Peter and Fang drove me back to the airport, which was really nice! It was just so right to have Fang with me, haha XD
When we got to the airport, I was actually planning how to get Fang on the plane with me to bringe her home with me XD

Anyway, I said goodbye to my last two new friends and got lost on the airport, even though Peter had told me where to go before XD
I'm just hopeless I guess... (OH THE IRONY XD)

The flight back to Germany was pretty horrible, since I got terribly sick on the plane.
It might've been the excitement, the sadness, the general hate towards planes, the exhaustion or the fact that I ate too much Tuna pizza XD

I dunno what it was, but I got sick... like really... 8D

Anyways, I went back to Luffy's place, which was nice again <3
Thanks a lot for letting me stay over :3333 :hug:
I overslept again on Monday and then went back home to sleep the whole damn day XD

>>>>>>>>>>>>>> AND NOW?

So... what I can say about all this? It was one of the best weekends of my life!
It was an adventure! It made me love FFXIII even more! It was like real visit too Grand Pulse and made me feel more like Vanille than ever.
Oh yeah and of course it got me a new favourit word: "VANILLISH" ! Best word ever XD

But most important of all - I got to meet new people, new friends:

Fang (Orochimarisu )- Who's not only an amazing cosplayer, but a great person as well. You really were like Fang to me... as in a bit like Fang's towards Vanille. We had a lot of fun and I'll be forever grateful to have met you.

Snow (Ascott) - whom I've known for almost 2 years before this project, but never as good as I know him now... we were friends before, but we're even closer friends now. And I don't even have to say anything about being the perfect Snow.

Serah (LadyxZero) - who is the perfect Serah, the perfect sister for Ana... you're the cutest and nicest person and I got to like you a lot in only a short time. Being with you made me happy :)

Hope (relentlessKey) - who was just like Hope - being a bit shy at the beginning, but talking more and more towards the end XD I really loved listening to all those stories you told us and you mad the impossible possible - you mad me like Hope XD

Peter - you were THE GUY! yes THE guy XD You managed a lot of things so well and tried to help in every way possible <3 you were always there to make a bad joke (and I love bad jokes XD) and you tried to keep a cool head all the time. Thanks so much for everything you did :3

Lukazs and all the other guys that drove around with us - Thanks for helping us, thanks for being there, thanks for just about everything! I didn't get to know all of you that well but I'm grateful for your help!

CelestialSpear - I only saw you a very very short time but took a liking to you instantly! Thanks thanks thanks for helping us at NomCon! You were amazing!

Martin (losticini) - an amazing photographer and a great person. He was really up for this adventure, so full of energy and ideas! He helped us with posing, expressions and you were a lot of fun to be with. There couldn't have been a better person to come along with us!

And last but not least:
Ana/Light (Anathiell) - words cannot express how grateful I am to you. You were amazing as Lightning, you were amazing as person. You organized all of this and made your dream come true. I couldn't be more happy to have been part of this. Thanks so much for bringing this project to live and managing all this so well and most of all thanks for letting me be part of this. You're simply great. Thank you.

I will truly miss all you very very much. This weekend is something I'll forever remember.
I really hope we will all meet again.

Thanks for making this weekend as great as it was. And sorry for sounding all emotional and so on, but this is how I truly feel now.

Thank you guys!

"Vanillish" greetings from Germany!! XD


I am so sorry... by Rayi-kun
FFXIII - I'm gonna protect you by Rayi-kun Sneak peak from Pulse by Anathiell
Farron sisters by Anathiell A postcard from Gran Pulse by Anathiell
As long as we believe... by Anathiell Gran Pulse by Anathiell

  • Listening to: FFXIII soundtrack
  • Playing: FFIX
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Coffee

A new type of character to cosplay?

Journal Entry: Thu Aug 12, 2010, 12:26 AM

What to cosplay?

Hey guys!

It's been a while since I've written anything... :'D

Lately I've been a bit bothered by the fact, that all the characters I cosplayed this year (and some before) seem to be somewhat similiar.

What I mean is... I always seem to pick or get those happy, nice and smiling characters like Vanille, Yuffie, Rikku, selphie, Alice, Mimi, Tinkerbell, Daisy, Anastasia and so on D:

Of course there's always a little difference between them, but not that much really >_<

Don't get me wrong, I loved to cosplay them! I only pick characters  I like, so it's not like I was forced or anything... AND I do like being like them, because I'm somewhat like them myself as well...
but it's just that, always cosplaying the same type of character gets boring pretty fast D:

Always smiling and being hyper isn't that much of a challenge, once you get used to it.

I want something different!! D:

Something like my No-Ah or Keika Cosplay... a different kind of character >___<

I understand, that my choices are limited, because of my face and my height °_° (which is my second reason for choosing characters like Vanille, 'cause it just fits...)

It's not like I'll be able to pull of some tall, manly guy or something, but maybe there some characters I can do >____<

At the moment I'm mostly looking forward to my Cesare (Cantarella) Cosplay at Connichi... not only because I love him, the manga and my group... but also because he's a tragic and evil personality %D

So I finally get to be different.

But I want more different characters...

So I'm asking whoever might read this:


I'd be forever grateful for your help! >w<

  • Listening to: Wicked OST
  • Reading: Needful Things (Stephen King)
  • Watching: Tinkerbell
  • Playing: FFIX
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Darjeeling

Something serious

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 30, 2010, 3:59 PM

About a lost friend

Hey guys,

there's just something I wanna tell you (if anyone ever reads this anyway).
Its about Sunny (Sunny-Sunshine87), so far the person I cosplayed with the most.

I have to say, you probably won't see much of her anymore. If anything at all.
We kinda broke off our friendship.
Or, well I did.

I'm the kind of person, that never fights people. I just can't.
But with her I did and a lot. I won't say, it was all only her fault (even though she would say so about me), because there's always two people involved.

But our friendship kept getting worse and worse, we hardly saw each other anymore and when we did, we fought.
She's the kind of person that argues a lot with people and often says things, that hurt you very much, without her realizing just how much.

After hearing from her again and again, just horrible I was and a lot of other things, I won't say here, because I don't wanna make it sound like I'm writing this to make her look bad; I couldn't take it anymore.

Over the years, there were a lot of times we almost broke off our friendship. But I never wanted to, I just never could. I always fought for us and often she did, too. I always thought our was worse it, I really did.
But there's a point where even someone like me can't take it anymore and that time has come.

Of course in her opinion I'm stupid for not letting her break off the friendship earlier and now doing it myself. But I guess I shouldn't be surprised by that anymore.

When I told her, our friendship was over, it was the hardest thing for me to do. It's just so unlike me. I felt so guilty.
I tried to not only say bad things about her and us. I pointed out the good parts of our friendship and how I would miss those.
But as always, all she seemed to hear were the bad parts. And all I got back as an answer were hateful words and accusations.

This was probably the only thing, that made the guilt pass.

Again, I don't intend to make her look bad. If she was a horrible person, I wouldn't have been close friends with her for such a long time.
But this is just how it was for me and there would be so much more to say... but I don't wanna reveal too much, sorry.

So I just wanted to say, it's over now. I feel sad that it had to end this way. I lost a very close friend with her, but I also lost the only person, that kept bringing me down emotionally. It was killing me and there was no other way.

I had hoped that we could've talked like adults, but after all those hateful words, I'll probably never talk to her again.

And you probably won't see much of her on my DeviantArt page either. Only if I maybe upload some old pictures.

This is a really hard blow for me to take, but there's also a lot of friends, who I've grown close to and who help me smiling through it.

For those people and everyone else who keeps making me smile, I could not be more grateful.
Thank you.

No matter how hard it is, I'll always find a reason to smile.

The Last Unicorn

    When the last eagle flies over the last crumbling mountain and the last lion roars at the last dusty fountain in the shadow of the forest though she may be old and worn they will stare unbelieving at the last unicorn When the first breath of winter through the flowers is icing and you look to the north and a pale moon is rising and it seems like all is dying and would leave the world to mourn in the distance hear the laughter of the last unicorn I'm alive, I'm alive When the last moon is cast over the last star of morning and the future has passed without even a last desperate warning then look into the sky where through the clouds a path is torn look and see her how she sparkles, it's the last unicorn I'm alive, I'm alive – I'm alive, I'm alive – I'm alive, I'm alive

  • Listening to: The Last Unicorn OST
  • Reading: Needful Things (Stephen King)
  • Watching: Tinkerbell
  • Playing: FFIX
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: Darjeeling